wait or drop?

wait or drop?
i really do not have those such powerful determination to decide,
failure in making an easy decision,
i am a loser,
whatever,
study,
sport,
or even in love,
confusing n totally complicated,
i love her,
but,
i do not how to love her,
forever love?
eternal love?
or just the feeling, i admired her?
i do not know,
i just know that,
i still love her,
i miss her,
i dream her,
all my mind crowded with her,
although she reject n reject me from the beginning,
but,
i still waiting for her,
accept me,
be my steady,
i know i was wrong,
because i should wait for her embrace,
but not taking those childish action to make her angry,
so,
i would not angry with her,
because it is my own problem,
i am over childish,
i must change!
change to be more mature,
responsible,
kind,
generous,
and gentle enough,
not only to her,
but,
all people,
all my fellow friend,
my parents,
whoever,
last but not least,
i love her!

Regretful

遗憾,是自己拿来的;
当自己失去时,
才懂得珍惜,
但,
一却都太迟了,
就仅仅那一步,
那一次,
我,
已被判死刑了!

遗憾,只怪我不能坚持;
都两年了,
为什么不持续?
为什么不等待?
为什么不把持?
一却都来不及了!

遗憾,都因为我不懂得爱情;
我,
不应在这时候放弃,
我,
应该忍耐,
不该犯错,
所以,
我,
后悔!

遗憾,是当我知错了;
虽然,
已经道歉,
但,
太迟了,
没有可能了的!

遗憾,就只能成回忆的一部分;
一却都成了过去,
不能会头,
所以,
现在,
我,
等待都没用了,
只有,
改变自己!